My Vipassana Meditation Retreat Experience

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vipassana-buddhaIn September 2016, I spontaneously decided to attend a Vipassana meditation retreat in the midst of some personal, spiritual, and professional turmoil. I was under the most stress and pressure I’d ever experienced and had been for the last 6-8 months. My agent dropped my contract the day before I left, and I had just come to the realization that dreams don’t exist. We moved out to LA and sacrificed everything (savings, marriage, time, etc.) to follow a “dream” I had since I was a child. However, when we begin to live more consciously, everything seems to be directly linked to liberation and freedom. We live in a slave system, and it isn’t natural to work 40 hours a week to earn hourly wages to pay for necessities the Earth has provided. Money began to seem like a huge burden because I was going to have to earn it by either being exploited or exploiting others. I hadn’t had health care in 2 years and was ready to fully unplug, with hopes of finding a solution for the deep hole I had dug myself into. There are far too few wise elders in my life, as most have been brainwashed by this Matrix we live in. So I quit life for ten days.


I was inclined to try this technique because the Buddha’s teaching is not religious. According to him, you have to work out your salvation; he can only show you the path. I am not religious and am very skeptical of any sectarian philosophy, but Vipassana technique is for anyone, anywhere, of any religious background. I also liked that it was completely free, they don’t accept money from wealthy benefactors, and are anti-capitalism. The staff/teachers are volunteers, and the students can attend as many retreats as they want which are entirely funded by past students. Once you become a past student they invite you to donate by setting up a discrete table in the corner of the dining hall on the last day – no buckets are passed around, and there are no promises of salvation after you die.

During the course, we followed a rigorous schedule for ten days, waking up at 4 am and meditating for 6-10 hours a day. Men and women were segregated. The management, kitchen staff, teachers, and coordinators were all volunteers, but they took their jobs very seriously. If you were five minutes late to the group meditation sessions, the management would come knocking on your door. At the same time, I felt the desire to abide by their strict rules because I felt very lucky to have the opportunity. The time and money of others, strangers at that, was paying for my liberation – with no strings attached. Everyone was incredibly kind, patient, and understanding, so I felt obliged to follow the rules and adhere to the course guidelines as closely as possible. We observed “noble silence” which kept us from making as much as eye contact with fellow students and watched nightly lectures by the founder of the Vipassana centers, G.N. Goenka.

Before the course began we had to agree to follow five precepts:
No killing
No lying
No stealing
No sexual intercourse
No intoxicants

Sounds easy, right? I spent eight days following the precepts perfectly. I didn’t have any sexual thoughts, didn’t steal anyone’s ponytail holders, and even rescued a frantic ant from the cafeteria. That was until the ninth day rolled around, and I killed a gnat without thinking. We also weren’t allowed to read, write, sing, exercise, eat snacks or outside food, use scented lotions or hair products, wear tight fitting clothes, and we couldn’t communicate with other students, members of the opposite sex, or outside friends/family.


The campus I attended was the center in Twentynine Palms, CA, about three hours outsvipassana-globalhqide of Los Angeles. It was close to a major road, but far from the hustle and bustle of the city. The climate was hot & dry, but the facility had everything you needed: vipassana, California style. The dorms had air conditioning, heat, the food was high quality and DELICIOUS, the restrooms were immaculate, and I felt protected from any source of danger. They provided extra lotion, tissues, tampons, cough drops, and pretty much anything else you may need. I think the most incredible part of the campus was watching the sunrise and set, and star-gazing at nighttime.

A very cool part of taking Vipassana, California style, was that nobody judges or defiles anyone else’s spiritual beliefs. In my home state of Missouri, if you’re not a Christian, it’d be a mistake to attend a Christian church to observe their beliefs. If people know you’re not a member, they’ll stare, say nasty things, and may even get you kicked out. There were students from Buddhist, Christian, and Muslim backgrounds, Indigos, Starseeds, Monks, Wiccans, and Atheists. And it made no difference. After we had broken silence, I talked about cannabis, DMT, & psychedelics with one group and Jesus with another.

Throughout the Vipassana meditation retreat, there were very few distractions. Without highways, loud generators, multi-story buildings, Facebook, Instagram, wifi, chemical food, fluoridated water, music, weed, alcohol, noisy neighbors, crystals, books, nobody to laugh with, work, pets, or bills, I got to chill with my thoughts. I didn’t realize how sabotaging “real life” was until I struggled to readjust after the course ended. The transformation you can go through in ten days is mind blowing, especially without major distractions.


vipassana-goenkaAttachment breeds misery. Because of ignorance, we react to sensations and our unconscious thoughts. This generates either cravings and aversions. These cravings manifest as an attachment to a particular material thing, outcome, or experience. Fully understanding a sensation, as it is and not as you want it to be, puts an end to craving and aversion. We observed the arising and passing away of sensation, the relishing of them, the danger, and their fading away at an experiential level.

I learned that the immediate cause of suffering and desire is not outside but in my mind. Suffering, at the root, is a substanceless sensation. I only respond based on past experiences, emotions, beliefs, and programs. Vipassana technique is about learning to deal with the inner reality of a sensation. The wisdom of impermanence must be understood and experienced to liberate ourselves from misery. Equanimity between good and bad sensations is the key.

There are four stages in the habit pattern of the mind: cognizing, recognizing, feeling, and reacting. An example, you observe the sensation of a mosquito biting you (cognizing), you realize mosquitos have bitten you before (recognizing), so you begin to feel annoyed and angry (feeling), and you react by smacking your arm, and killing the mosquito before it can fly away (reacting).

The mind is always reacting to unconscious sensations on the body: pleasant, unpleasant, and neutral. The habit pattern of the mind is to react rather than observe. Vipassana technique teaches us to quiet the mind to see even the subtlest sensation. You change the habit pattern by realizing the entire physical structure of the mind & body is constantly evolving. Life itself is a process of growing, dying, arising & passing away. There’s no meaning or purpose in generating aversion toward something you don’t prefer because misery is inevitable, but it is also impermanent.


I was so excited to reunite with my family after such a transformational experience and can see things from a perspective I never had before. I lost 8 lbs at the retreat, proving a mental workout may be more intense than a physical workout. I also became adverse to eating some foods like chocolate and oil (I used to fry everything). My relationship is much more peaceful and tranquil. I don’t interrupt my husband by prioritizing my agenda/thoughts over his like I used to.


I have to admit I feel a little uneasy. The amount of distraction we deal with is insane. The societal obstruction of personal space is constant. I’ve heard about the effects of wifi, stress, and sitting at a desk all day. But it’s different when you step away long enough to experience them. Readjusting feels like getting into an ice bath after running a marathon. A necessary, but painful experience. It’s forcing me to put my newfound discipline and awareness to the test. But I learned to be equanimous and experienced how everything is always changing. Because of this newfound wisdom, I feel a sense of well-being.

Getting away from all the pollution and stress allowed my mind and body to heal. When I first moved to LA, I was overcome with blackheads and a lot of my hair fell out. An unexpected benefit of doing vipassana California style is that my skin has cleared up. I also made a conscious effort to feel gratitude during the rigorous retreat, and I’m glad now that it’s over. I would never insist on someone attending a Vipassana retreat. However, I am now an Evangelist. A desire for liberation has to be strong enough to will yourself to complete the course and follow the guidelines. I realize not everyone is ready for that. I’ll do it again – maybe even once a year.

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Poverty is a Mindset

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Today I decided to post an article I wrote last summer – before my re-awakening journey began. Most of it still stands to be true, and I am still finding myself. I’ve met quite a few people who confirm my theories on poverty, as they have been able to dig themselves out of it.

I met a guy that wanted a $1 million yacht and only had $50,000 cash. He then went to the casino and gambled until he could afford the boat. Now he’s no genius, he owns a lot of toys and properties and has a basic understanding of the Law of Attraction & the Law of Compensation. Once a person has obtained a substantial amount of money for adding immense value to the lives of others, it doesn’t seem very hard to stay wealthy. The problem is that in a Universe of duality & polarity, the only way to meet everyone’s needs is to shift the collective mindset. Have you ever known of someone who won the lottery or played professional sports and went broke a few years later? I’m sure we could all name a few. The collective mindset around money has not changed.

First, money is not a naturally occurring concept and should not exist. Money and trade were invented to create disparities in the distribution of resources. When you think about it, should we be required to pay for water? The Earth provides it for free, and the cost of cleaning it could come out of our taxes. The Ancient Egyptians invented free electricity and re-discovered by Nikola Telsa in the 19th century – so why do we still pay for it? I mean do we think the owners of McDonald’s eat McDonald’s? Or the owners of KMart wear KMart clothing and use KMart products? Is low-quality, factory mass-produced beef that most Americans eat helping us live longer, or is it making a profit for the insurance and healthcare industries?

poverty-mindset-3There is no such thing as “middle class.” The more we make, the more we spend – that’s how we’ve been taught. Without credit cards, layaway, or loans – the middle class wouldn’t exist. My mom got her master’s degree, but my dad only has a GED. They had two kids and brought in $100,000 a year jointly at the top of their careers. When I was applying for financial aid, Sallie Mae decided that my household averaged one bachelor’s degree per adult and $20,000 of discretionary income per child per year. I had trouble funding my college education because my parents were “too wealthy” to get assistance. My “broke” friends received much lower interest rates and qualified for more grants. I was forced to take the highest interest loan option. I stupidly followed through with my degree program, knowing I would only make $30,000 a year after I graduated. I knew this wasn’t my parent’s fault; they were victims of the same tyrannical system. Did you know the only debt that they don’t forgive in bankruptcy is student loan debt?

In the book “How Rich People Think” Steve Siebold states that “average people believe the road to riches is through formal education, while rich people feel the path is revelaed by acquiring specific knowledge.” Most of my elders have degrees, but there aren’t any entrepreneurs in my family. There are no business owners, no independent contractors, and no artists. Everyone is deep in the system, working day in and day out for an hourly wage. They’ve been educated through a manipulated lens, and teach the younger generations to follow suit. On my mom’s side, all my uncles and aunts have their Masters +30 or +40; some even have Ph.D.’s. However, they don’t have a Ph.D. in medicine or a mathematic or scientific field. They’re proponents of the education system because my grandmother was valued prestige and earning credentials. My mom’s siblings also couldn’t survive without societal structures like healthcare, hourly wage systems, have relatively unsuccessful kids, and are the most socially awkward people I know, individually and collectively. Through my experience, it doesn’t seem like graduating college is the end all.

However, dropouts like Bill Gates (Microsoft), Tai Lopez (Investor), Mark Zuckerberg (Facebook), Jack Dorsey (Twitter), and Steve Jobs (Apple) seem to have done well for themselves. In a world where several college dropouts are worth billions, college is clearly not the route to wealth, but rather a loose correlation. There are more unsuccessful people that have graduated college. I wonder if a college graduate has ever used their degree to work for a salary, and become a billionaire?

The other day, my cousin realized he’d never be able to own a Ferrari if he continued following his degree path of working in corporate. He’d never be able to travel the world because he only gets two weeks vacation per year. If someone like my cousin works overtime, and doesn’t take a day off for years, shmoozes, and prioritizes his work over family, religion, health, or anything else, he climbs the corporate ladder, and eventually MIGHT reach 3rd or 4th in command for the company. It’s unlikely he’ll reach the top because he doesn’t have any family or wealthy mentors to vouch for him at the top. But that is extremely unlikely because who is that committed to their job? Most likely he’ll get up to about $150,000 around the time he retires and then uses his 401k to take a few resort-style vacations & live out his last ten years.

poverty-mindsetThis education and corporate 9 to 5 system just seems like a distraction to me. Most of the people who are so passionate about the system, earning degrees, having a secure job, aren’t benefitting on the back end. If a job is willing to pay you $60,000 a year straight out of college, how much do you think your efforts are worth? They’re paying to train you, provide a clean work environment, staff the facility, and lease the building

As they say, the best way to hide things is in plain sight. I’m sure earning credit, paying taxes, voting, watching reality television, eating GMO foods, and buying into dramatic storytelling from trusted news sources about issues that are irrelevant uses up all of our daily will power and energy. Just take a small-minded, religious person, that’s close to their unpowerful family, and values abiding by the law – then distract them with a system of hoops to jump through and unnecessary restrictions. Make sure they’re raised to fear the loss of job security. Feed their subconscious with all kinds of advertisements, propaganda, racially divisive media, and bad news about other countries. Add in the pressures of poverty, with culture-created stress, blind faith, and you’ve got modern day oppression. I bet you can get someone to give up their autonomy when they’re scared. They’ll live a life of ups and downs, without adding much value to the world, and then die leaving behind debt, and confused relatives. Their offspring and future generations will go through the same struggle, and the majority will suffer while the wealthy elite prevails. Business as usual.

In the book, Siebold also gives some other examples of how poverty is like a disease of the mind. For example, the self-talk of average people goes something like “I’m not enough,”I’m not good enough,” or “I can’t afford it.” A rich person’s self-talk goes “I am enough,”I’m good enough,”What shift do I need to make to be able to afford this?” I’ve heard my relatives talk about what they don’t have, what they don’t want, and who they don’t like my entire life. It would be abnormal to spend time around people that talk about what they’re in the process of creating, or what adjustments they’re making to achieve something greater.

To put it simply, poor people are outwardly humble and inwardly prideful, while rich people are outwardly prideful and inwardly humble. A broke person might sacrifice for their kids, eat ramen noodles for dinner, tithe their last $10 in church, and shop on clearance. A wealthy person might drive a Mercedes, eat lunch at a sushi bistro, and only buy designer brands. None of that has anything to do with humility or lack thereof.

A rich person has a flexible mindset and focuses more on innovation and creativity. They have found a way to attain enough resources to take care of themselves and their families so that they can spend more time and energy adding value to the world. A disadvantaged person has to spend all of their energy trying to survive by whatever means necessary, and as a result, adds little value. They can barely take care of themselves, so by having 3 or 4 children and divorcing their spouse, they’re using up resources they’re not replenishing, and making the world worse off.

That same rich person may own a business that employs 100 people, raise two children that become doctors, and spend more money on philanthropy each year than the poor person makes before taxes. The broke person may have four kids, live off of food stamps & child support, and drive a newish Mercedes, but they’re behind on the note. They will die in debt & leave nothing for their children. The rich person will pass down stock in multi-million-dollar companies and three homes.

poverty-mindet-2I know that was brutal, but this is a big problem in our society. The poor are blind, culturally divided, and exploited. We all know many people like the empoverished in the example, but not a single multi-millionaire. It’s embarrassing to come from poverty, and we all want to think that the efforts we’ve made throughout our lives amount to something. But if the people that guide you, the church you go to, the activities you try, and your entire subconscious program comes from poverty, how can you expect that to result in wealth without a major demolition?

I once read that it’s harder for a celebrity to become irrelevant than it is for them to get famous in the first place. And the bible says “it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” You see how the game works? The system is structured this way. I realize that my parents and teachers probably didn’t know what they were doing. They meant well, but now I’ve got to undo what they did and build a better foundation.

At the end of the day, poverty is a mindset. It has to be held up, reinforced, and maintained. It’s a result of environmental stimuli and perceptions of past experiences. It’s a mindset that came from generations of holding certain beliefs. Plant the seed, and it just needs fertile soil, water, and sunlight to continue to grow. Success can’t be measured based on how much money someone makes, or whether they went to college. But by how happy they are, and their quality of life. Poverty and wealth are results of where people spend their energy. To break the cycle, we have to get to destroy it at the root and begin thinking for ourselves. We have to tear down every belief and learn to discern between good and bad information. The process is painful, but I know it will be rewarding in the end.


Waking Up To Our Potential

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The Mayans predicted that Dec 21, 2012, would be the day we descended out of the “age of darkness.” Many people assumed this would be the day the world would end, doomsday, or the infamous “Armageddon.” However, here we are, February 2016, and planet Earth is still a dense, polluted, regenerating, overpopulated, ever evolving, habitat to billions of organisms – floating in a galaxy of 10s of billions of twinkling balls of heat. There are approximately 10 billion galaxies in the observable universe. The number of stars in each galaxy varies, but if there are on average, 100 billion stars per galaxy. That inadvertently means there are about 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 (or 1 billion trillion) stars in the foreseeable universe.

The Earth is the largest planet of four terrestrial planets in orbit in our Solar System. It is reportedly the only astronomical object that can “harbor life,” meaning everything else, as far as we can tell, is too hot, wet, dry, icy, inclimate, or weightless to keep us alive; this is according to scientists and university scholars. How arrogant of us measly little humans.

derealization-1I find it tough to believe that we’re the only form of life in the galaxy. Humans are not even capable of exploring the furthest depths of the oceans on our own planet (which happen to be greater than the mass of the Earth’s land). The Pacific Ocean alone is 165.25 million square kilometers while the Earth’s land mass is only 148.94 million square kilometers between all seven continents. So why would we make an assumption about outer space, a place so big it’s beyond comprehension? Math, science, and technology teach us FACTS, right? However, art, music and history are dead subjects that show us information about irrelevant, unrealistic, biased or outdated concepts and theories. To the far left-brained, analytical, 3D, there is nothing wrong with that. To the right-brained, creative thinker, it sounds foolish and limited. Creativity makes anything possible, and the imagination is necessary to bring anything into creation. Not everything has to be measurable, proven, or even logistically sound, to exist.

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“Imagination is more important than knowledge.”

Albert Einstein

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For example, everything from building the Pyramid of Giza in Egypt, to doing kindergarten homework assignments requires creativity. Even the most extreme creative acts, like rape or mass murder, require imaginative ability. Creating offspring through the act of sexual reproduction is arguably the most creative thing we might do.

D7_Chakrasuring intimacy, the Belly Chakra or Sacral Chakra is activated. The Sacral Chakra is located 2 inches under the belly button. This same chakra can be activated during a Kundalini Meditation, session, which requires an extreme set of circumstances to achieve. I once experienced this type of mediation by accident when I was meditating with a specimen of Libyan Desert Glass and was interrupted by my brother-in-law who has terrible karma. I forgot to create a protective grid around the area in which I was meditating so it was penetrated. During the interruption, I experienced sleep paralysis and loud chanting inside my head. I believe it was a result of a kundalini experience, but it also could’ve been my brother’s bad energy attaching itself to me when I was at my most vulnerable, and in a meditative state.

We should be taught about these things in schools and by our loved ones. Learning to meditate properly and protect your energy and vibration, are arguably far more important than learning about how to write a cover letter correctly, or calculating the derivative of some crazy high number. We’ve gotten away from the days of using the position of the sun or astrology for math and science. We’re super disconnected from the Earth and each other. The days when we only focused on creativity, productivity and longevity are in the distant past. We’ve created systems that make things easier, less enjoyable and require more resources. People are fundamentally unhappy because they’ve been groomed to work in a system that wasn’t designed to benefit them individually. This system caps their ability to produce resources to promote the enjoyment of life. It disregards their definitions of happiness, health, wealth, beauty, and love. Hand-outs and taxation discourage people from reaching their full potential. The dream of security encourages conformity and avoiding risk taking at all costs. The seduction of being a part of a group, or “identity” promote mediocrity. People’s minds are about as expansive as my nostril. They are running old programs given to them by their families when they were children.

Generation after generation, people seem to get more complacent with where they’re at. My grandmother moved from Mississippi to be the first in her lineage to graduate college (not that I am supporting attending college, but that’s an entirely different subject). Not only did she earn several degrees, but she put 4 of her siblings and six children through college. One might expect that the children would raise her grandchildren to be epic, but that is not the case. Sure most of the grandchildren attended college, but generation after generation, the family seems to be getting worse off. By providing an education for her children, she removed the urgency they would’ve had to figure out what they wanted for their future. They just had to pick a curriculum to follow from a list of about 20 options. No one achieved their dreams, or even figured out what their dreams were, and there are still no entrepreneurs in the family. There was one. He cooked meth and printed money. I think he’s still at Leavenworth. Just like most Americans, they live for the weekend, hate their jobs, are overweight, camp out on Black Friday, shop 4th of July clearance sales, eat fast food, and have filed bankruptcy at least once. The point is, people need pressure to create diamonds.

To me, it seems like society has DEVOLVED, and we could learn a thing or two from the Egyptians.
Why are we taught that the pyramids were tombs, even though there were no bodies found. There are clear indications they served as some form of an aqueduct to provide free power & electricity to ancient civilizations? But hey, when you spend about 10 hours in all, of your entire primary and secondary education learning about them, that can easily be missed. Why are there over 5,000 years of civilized history, but our school systems focus on the short 300ish years of American history?

If the contract you have in life were comparable to that of a lease agreement, you’d have some serious questions. You may even be ready to file a lawsuit. What if the government was your landlord, and your parents were your messy, unreliable, immature roommates? Your “landlord” made a lot of empty promises and schmoozed you into moving in with high hopes. Then after a month or so, when you started to get the hang of things, he began to find every opportunity possible to exploit you. If you paid your rent late, he fined you three times your rent. If you needed a repair, he took forever to come and take care of it, and when he finally did, he blamed you and charged a hefty fee for the replacement. If you had guests over, he had to know everything about them, so privacy didn’t really exist. You couldn’t paint or reupholster because you never really owned anything. Your food was cooked in his oven (which could have lead or carcinogens), your car is parked in his garage (where he isn’t responsible for any lost or stolen items), and your belongings, all that you own and love, are in a unit only he has access to. So if he were in some trouble with his drug dealer, he could stage a robbery or murder in your unit, and even if you know you’re innocent, he owns the keys, the security cameras, and any possible witnesses. Everyone in the building is trying to stay on his good side, so they’re willing to lie for him, and ultimately he has the ability to make you appear guilty without a shadow of a doubt.

Now your parents, or “roommates” mean well, but they’re sloppy and will get you caught up in their drama. They’re like a 5th year senior, with an extreme case of apathy. They’ve been in the game so long they’ve forgotten what it’s like to be free. Their world has shrunken to the size of a small Midwestern university, and they’re completely apathetic. They love to play the blame game – blaming advising for their crappy schedule, their sorority for being judgmental, the campus ministry for having Bible study on Friday nights, and even the Dean for not giving out more scholarship money. Their grades are sub-par, and they remember more about tonight’s episode of “Bad Girls Club” than what they’re studying in physics, or who they hooked up with last night. When you’re trying to study or better yourself, they’re flooding your ears with breakup drama, and your stomach with Little Caesar’s $5 Hot-N-Ready Pizza. And as if they’re not distracting enough, they also are only interested in talking about who you’re dating and when you’re having babies.

You didn’t really have a say in how your place was decorated because they already lived there, or the vibe or spiritual energy there because they had already chosen that. The thing is, the random roommate picker website said you’d be a good fit based on your hobbies and interests. But, that seems to be far from accurate. Initially, you guys had fun getting to know someone new, but as you started to develop different interests, you both kind of expected the other to tag along. They were kind of possessive, jealous, and slightly embarrassing, so you began to distance yourself. They helped you survive the loneliness and confusion of the first few weeks of school, and for that, you will be eternally grateful. However, you wanted to be cool, social, and have an epic college experience, so naturally, you ditched them.

anubis__godI get it; there is a sense of familial, governmental, political, religious, cultural, and national loyalty, but it’s time for people to wake up. We’ve been asleep for so, so long. We have to get real with ourselves and start to think about what actually makes us feel happy, healthy, wealthy, and loved. We have to remember that life is short, and we’ll all be dead soon. Who are you living for? What are you dedicating your life towards? Would things be different if you were born into an entirely different family, across the world, under completely different circumstances? If you died tomorrow, would there be balance? Have you contributed everything you were destined to, and earned a place back where life began? Would you be okay with how your life played out? If given the chance, would you do it all again?


How to Get to 5th Dimensional Reality

There’s a lot of talk about “5D Earth” and how the Age of Aquarius will allow us to enter the 5th dimension, but not much explaining the process. Below I’ve given an in-depth synopsis of how to transition to greater spirituality. Let’s go over the first 4 dimensions of consciousness so you might have a meta-view of how complex our world really is.

1st-dimensional consciousness is still. The level of consciousness that resonates in this dimension is the “Mineral” Kingdom. We are presently residing in 3rd Dimensional consciousness and our current science has not proven that 1st-dimensional minerals are conscious beings. Curiously, healers and shaman have been using crystals as healing tools for centuries. Based on my personal experience with crystals, I believe there is consciousness at the mineral level – however subtle.

ladybugsIn humans, the first dimension is a portion of our bodies representing minerals, water, and genetic codes that are the foundation of our physical forms. If we were to access this level of our unconscious, we could connect with the individual molecules in our environment. This level is the gateway between the microcosm and the macrocosm.

2nd-dimensional consciousness is flat. The consciousness that resonates to this dimension is that of the Plant and Animal Kingdoms. This level does not possess self-awareness. These beings are only conscious of their species, and survival needs like feeding, fighting, and procreation. They live solely “in the moment” and based on survival of the fittest.

Human second-dimensional consciousness serves to direct the lower brain, autonomic nervous system, and to regulate life support functions. Our five physical senses resonate in the 3rd dimension, and these functions are an unconscious component of ourselves.

Unlike “civilized” humans,“primitive” peoples are much more aware of their “animal instincts” and how they are part of a greater whole – with respect for all life forms and the balance of Nature.

3rd-dimensional consciousness contains length, height, width, depth, and volume. The consciousness of this dimension resonates to the higher Animal and Human Kingdoms. It has all the elements of the 1st and 2nd-dimensional beings including water, minerals, genetic coding, biological matter, awareness of species, survival functions, as well as an individual soul. The individual Soul distinguishes humans from the others in the Animal Kingdom who have a group Soul.

3rd-dimensional consciousness is trapped in a time/space and cause/effect paradigm. This dimension and 3d Earth is a “school” which our Souls attend by inhabiting humanoid physical bodies to gain more information about creation. Life mirrors what we are seeking to understand, and creation occurs via our thoughts and feelings. Manifestation is slowed down in order to track the circumstances of what we hold in our consciousness through the experience.

As wmultidimensional-beinge progress through life, we go from powerless to independent. We begin to understand our personal power, gain responsibility, self-confidence, and learn to trust ourselves. As we gain trust and respect for ourselves, we become confident and self-reliant. Then we can become responsible for others. This is the progression of life in the 3rd dimension which typically coincides with age in this time/space reality. A dysfunctional family is created when we become parents (responsible for others) before we have completely exited the dependent stage. We end up with several generations living as dependents, and no one with the self-confidence to be responsible for others.

The conundrum of the 3rd dimension is that society and science programs us to believe the only reality that exists is the one we perceive with our 5 physical senses. This dimension only contains length, height, width, depth, and volume. However, because we have an individual Soul, the ability to remember the past & perceive the future, AND simultaneously we can remain aware of the present – we tend to use our 3rd-dimensional reality to advance ourselves and question “what more is out there?”

The trap at this state of consciousness is that the spirit congeals into matter, and consciousness is limited to the individual ego. The development of a strong sense of ego is gained, at the cost of losing our sense of group identity. We often trade our sense of group identity for a strong sense of ego. Awareness of our Spiritual Self, I don’t mean through religion, is remembered when we expand our consciousness to encompass higher dimensions. If we release our dependency on others and forgive those who made us powerless victims, we ascend to higher dimensions where we are aware that we alone create our reality. Our early 3rd dimensional “unconscious” self-sabotage, no longer takes place. Our consciousness expands from individual consciousness to group > community > national > collective > planetary > and ultimately galactic consciousness. To reach the 4th dimension, we must eliminate all fear and negativity. The most important areas to master are love, oneness, forgiveness, and gratitude.


immortal4th-dimensional consciousness contains everything from the lower dimensions, our astral self, and the realm of dreams. The fourth dimension is also known as the Astral Plane, where our “higher” selves or OverSouls reside. This plane is etheric and our perception of past, present, and future is more fluid; known as the realm of telepathy, psychic ability, imagination, intuition, magic, dreaming, and creativity. At this level, we reintegrate our individual identity into the group as it is the last vibration where physical vessels contain individual consciousness. It is the realm of the “shape-shifters” in mythology. Many shaman can actually ground their astral form upon the 3rd dimension to temporarily change form. As the 4th dimension is not restricted by time or space, we can dream of an entire lifetime and wake up to find that only fifteen minutes of physical time has passed.

The fourth dimension holds awareness of our body’s 1st & 2nd-dimensional components, as well as all our past third dimensional lives. Other than conquering fear & negativity, we can expedite the process to achieving 4th-dimensional reality by meditating, remembering our dreams, and having intense experiences of passion, creativity, emotion, empathy, or spirituality.

Technically, while sleeping we are unconscious in the 3rd dimension and conscious in the 4th dimension.  If born with an innate connection to the 4th-dimension, we must “work” to ground our consciousness in the 3rd-dimensional world, no matter how confusing or hostile. Those born without this 4D connection may not even believe in the “higher self” and are inadvertently cut off from experiencing greater realities.

Our higher astral self can give us guidance through expanded perception, but the 4th dimension still has the polarity of light and dark. In the 4th dimension, thought and feelings create reality much more quickly than in the 3rd dimension. It is dangerous to have any lingering fears in this realm, as it will create evil as easily and quickly as love creates joy.

4D Subplanes

The Lower Astral Plane

body-1This is where all the fear and negativity are projected from the 3D physical plane. Known as “Hell” by many religious sects, this is the true darkness. Put simply, 4th-dimensional consciousness amplifies 3rd-dimensional emotions. If you are living a poor existence in the 3rd-dimension, you are likely experiencing Hell in 4D, and a path must be forged to higher astral planes.

The Middle 4th-Dimension

Also known as the Land of Faery, this realm is the pathway through the fear and darkness of the Lower Astral Plane. After we have experienced Faery, we can travel in our 4D or astral bodies to the Emotional Plane, and learn to master our emotions. We can also travel into the Mental Plane and learn mastery of our thoughts. The Causal Plane, or Higher Mental Plane, is where we master the Law of Cause and Effect. Finally, the Spiritual Plane connects us to higher guidance, God, Source, and the Great I AM. I have listed the subplanes below from highest to lowest:

SPIRITUAL (CAUSAL): Master the Law of Cause and Effect & Spiritual Guidance
MENTAL: Mastery over our thoughts
EMOTIONAL (ASTRAL): Mastery over our emotions
LAND OF FAERY: Pathway out of Lower Astral; mixes emotional, mental, & causal
LOWER ASTRAL: Mastery over fear and negativity

ETHERIC: interface between 3D & 4D

The Etheric Body is a vibration between the third and fourth dimension. This body encompasses the physical body.

4th-Dimensional Bodies


All the 4th-dimensional bodies exist over, under, around, through, above, and below the physical body, but are not seen with the 5 physical senses. If we learn to perceive the 4th dimension consciously, we can expand our awareness enough to enter the Superconscious Mind of the 5th dimension.

Fearful emotions make for a tumultuous and uncomfortable ride. Higher planes will remain out of reach if our personal imbalances are not corrected. To journey through higher planes we must keep our thoughts harmonious and our feelings centered around love, an infinite source of balance. We are only at the beginning of our journey my friends. In the next article, I will explain the importance of reahcing the 5th dimension.

Manifestation Definition and How I Became An Expert

Manifestation Definition Throughout History

All this “New  Thought” terminology can be intimidating and overwhelming. However, much of these “New Thoughts” date back to ancient beliefs and ideologies. All of the major world religions have a similar manifestation definition. According to mythology, the Egyptian gods (Anubis, Osiris, etc) were manifest on the Earth. Christians believe Christ was a divine manifestation of God. Hindus, Buddhists, Jews, and Muslims all have some sort of religious practice that involves manifestation.

So what is it exactly?
tut-exhibit-princess-head-tut_46-528x794The act of manifesting or disclosing, is an exhibition, a display or revelation of God’s power in creation. You may hear many people talking about manifesting money, manifesting a new job opportunity, a vacation, or a relationship. You can pretty much manifest anything you can conceive. The trick is that you can only manifest as much as you can imagine and comprehend.

As a child, I was particularly good at manifesting, but I didn’t consciously know what I was doing. When I was 2, I wanted to go to visit Cinderella at Disney World and used potty training as leverage. On the playground, I would make up elaborate stories about putting sand into soda cans to make Kool-Aid and offer buttons (and other trash I found) as protection against bad guys in exchange for snacks and toys I wanted. When I was 8, I manifested becoming the youngest dancer on pointe, and the star of my dance studio – getting all the solos & duets with my parents. When I was 10, I wanted to star in one of the shows at the largest outdoor theater in America; not only did I manifest that, but I got paid to do it. When I was 12, I had the opportunity to perform on Broadway but my parents couldn’t afford it. I started a business and made 10x the money I needed for my trip. As a sophomore in high school, though I’d never played sports, I manifested becoming the fastest girl on the Varsity track team. When it came time for college, I wanted to attend the same school as my high school sweetheart, but my parents couldn’t afford it so I manifested like 12 scholarships even though my grades weren’t epic. Halfway through college, I decided I wanted to graduate early but I had transferred 3 times and changed my major. I was able to manifest the finances to take 2 semesters abroad (during the summer & winter), transfer an entire year worth of credits, and graduate early.

The Infamous Wedding

I set the intention to marry my high school sweetheart when I was 15, and 7 years later we got married. I had decided I wanted to profit off of our wedding rather than go into debt, so we hired our staff from Craigslist and rented a park pavilion for like $50. My dress was from Free People and my uncle was the officiant. We invited 250 people, rented tables from a warehouse to put overflow in the parking lot, hired a DJ we’d never met, and made friends with the owner of an “All-You-Can-Eat” Taco Truck. Three news stations were supposed to cover our wedding so we didn’t have to hire a photographer, we made our own decorations, and our honeymoon was a low-budget backpacking trip across Costa Rica. Our theme was a wedding “fiesta-picnic” because we love Latin everything, and were having it in a park pavilion. Our aisle was drawn in chalk, we had popcorn & cotton candy, and there were 22 people in our bridal party. There was no dress code, no seating arrangements, we didn’t ask for gifts (though we did have a donations basket), and everyone’s kids were welcome. The only problem was it was scheduled to thunderstorm for the entire day of our wedding and the Ferguson riots gave news stations a more dramatic story to cover.

wedding_article_picMiraculously the rain cleared and the sun came out at 4:45pm, about 15 minutes before the ceremony. Everyone ate, we made a ton of money, the bartender got everyone drunk, the DJ played the most epic mix of Latin/Old School R&B/Hip Hop, and a friend’s dad became our photographer. The storms picked back up around 8:30pm when the old folks started getting tired and everyone was already wasted. It was a big party and the best wedding many people had ever attended.

I had always intended to be an actress but my husband was really conservative, so I resolved to leave acting behind. Without giving it much attention, I found myself a professional actress living in Hollywood and happily married to my high school sweetheart shortly thereafter. I had worked with Brian Cranston, Tia Mowry, Columbus Short, and Mindy Kaling on some of the biggest shows – I’d even appeared in Straight Outta Compton. Dreams really do come true, if you let them.

How I Became An Expert At Manifesting

I really became an expert at manifesting as a child, but it wasn’t until my spiritual awakening that I began to understand exactly what I was doing. Prior to daily meditation and recording my tasks & actions, it was hard to understand the method to my madness. My manifestation definition had been, “manipulate and obsess over something until you get it.” There are several instances I can name where I failed miserably, but any failure to manifest exactly what I wanted was either because my vision lacked specificity or I didn’t believe in myself. Upon embarking on my journey to self-realization and becoming more enlightened, I learned that life on Earth is like a holographic video game. Our actions are manifestations of our thoughts, making thoughts more powerful than actions. If I had doubts about my abilities, it was a choice I made based on my past experiences. If I wanted to manifest something that my experiences hadn’t set me up to achieve, I usually didn’t believe in my ability to achieve it – and failed. The international bestselling “Success Diary” and Peter Drucker’s handbook on “Managing Oneself” are both tools I used to track my ability to conceive a goal. Eventually, I could even sense & predict the incubation period before I achieved my goal.

The two most important things I learned about manifesting exactly what we want are that:

  1. We have to be able to imagine & believe we are capable of achieving what we want
  2. Elimination of distractions & detours speeds up manifestations

We can also gauge how quickly we will be able to manifest something by how “ready” we feel for the task & responsibility we seek. If you want to learn the art of Instant Manifestation and how to manifest things very quickly, you should read part 2 of this article.